Neuroticism

Gnashing my teeth as the vertigo
threatens to smash my face
into the laminate, but it’s 6 am and
you’re too wrapped in sleep to
Keep watch

Distrust is a disease worse than
multiple sclerosis but it does the same
Thing
Wearing down your nerves and
Obliterating the connections
Til you’re waiting for the next loud
Crack

I turned the shower on but I couldn’t get in
I couldn’t risk it
And it’s personal but I was afraid
If I fell faint
No one would hear it and I’d
Bleed out in the drain

 

–LM