a girl realizes the damage is done

I would say I fear suspicion but you know the old backward adage guilt before innocence I think I slept wrong stop listening to the television I might just rewire these barbs pack up my shit & keep my distance I really can’t stand a rabid human yet here I am bleeding out for your sustenance suspended in bad habits I must confess I hate any miniscule form of control however they happen _{that is my admission} feeling out my new pathogen I have to say if karma is a bitch I envy her style• classic not too hazardous so much room for fulfillment you’d think I’m proud of it
    
–LM

for scientific purposes only

I found myself saying goodnight
    to the love of my life
        & throwing up in porcelain
the same night & I don’t miss it

      there is really no explanation

    take offense; I’ll wear you like Kevlar
   knowing the only thing standing between
   me & Jacob Seed is the music box

       Elon’s Starship blew up and I can’t be
   happier, neither can he, don’t be naive like me
          a round of applause it seems
  for this was truly a success ________

                                                         –LM

your call is important to us

in a process of project decapitation all within a moments notice I swear I’m not scared they said those birds were dead how unreal

now they’re drones piloted by the government I’m all for a change of address old name new documents thumbing this constitutional hit list I’m feeling ^shambolic home is my favorite four letter word beside free give me a second to confirm what I actually mean

PLEASE HOLD . . .

–LM

Saul Goodman

I am the hardest peg to shape
                   I know, I irritate me too

                   quite literally, you may reflect my kindness
           & in those terrible seconds we become this typical human preset
          unspoken mode
      comedians            
target               so well

                 I love
          we hate

humanity knows me so less



–LM

So,

I am the prototype of my own life trying to bring something new something nostalgic – futuristic I try to type& my mind spins I spin oh Vertigo where have you been all of my life I think my path split I think youtube shorts are advertisements Lite & smoke them in two minute segments it’s not a problem it’s repetitive sure but it’s not an addiction
is it a white elephant I’m avoiding or a loaded gun why aren’t I screaming where’s my voice why did it go missing where are we now where have we all went wrong

where are we going

–LM

I am missing. Poetry cannot save me.

I want prince charming to infuse
    movie experience & make me cry
   out of where where where have you
      been please please please reduce
         me

   or ^_macro-me I love I live to be
  important important next to you

    several heartbeats in,
  LM

your pulse when you’re close

You know you’re with me when it’s dark &
    every sound bleeds out it

     drains from my open window
            into my room into the floor

I am struggling with claustrophobia trying hard for sophistication the satin pillow over my face is poisoned

why must age reek of musk & heavy perfume

how could death become seductive even once
     I think it’s argument won over several many
   I keep convincing myself life is ____, though

–LM

a girl is laughing in her sleep

I won’t tell you God has a fucked up sense of humor hownownow I’m getting ahead(ache)
          she said “I don’t know about April”,
              somehow I was praying that was her name when she sends it by mail

                       I’m still clouding my judgment & until there’s no way to tell I’m totally absent
                                   I’m gonna need a roll call somebody else hold my place | I need to be on stage I’ve got to dance the white swan
                    somebody say April Fools b/c

                                            I’m laughing

–LM