the auxiliary label

it seems fatal heart attacks are more common on blue Mondays
         suffice to say its not hard to get away with murder just ask the 45 bags of human body parts found in Mexico & it doesn’t always take a weapon to dismember a person if you aim for their ego
      I would know I’ve never been a fan of fragile but reading my best friends email just means I mean I mean that personally I do honestly admire trust the way I admire faith & I’m really taking a risk but maybe peace isn’t just a filter

                [do not bend
                     do not stack
                     do not crush]

                                   –LM

the mosquito

on the contrary I think I’ll be okay without the black flag waving in the water I can ignore it from the harbor I don’t have many people I let in there are more I shut out & I’m not a fan of being taken for a fool so
                I’ve finally decided to worry about me because nobody is saving me except me

            & don’t I love playing easy difficulty all blood & honey & laughter
           you’d think I was missing the s in slaughter but red is not my color who has time for mind games anymore the issue dealing with moonshine [and I’m talking about the satellite] is it’s always there regardless of what the sun thinks of it
          annoying fact innit

–LM

pauseplaypause

the Playstation showcase was a disappointment
        a lot of color not enough substance

Had I known you were looking for the ethereal I would’ve sent you the eye and been on my way
      turns out even God has a conspiracy against you
        [just an inside joke]

people have a vain habit
     of making my work about themselves
   that’s my fault I know you’re onto me you’ve got to be I know you’re reading stop butchering my pitch its the _bottom of the ninth and I’m a conspiracy favorite maybe right now is too soon
                  for all things to sink
                                    in but

         you’ve got to know I call first dibs
   on your acceptance to the academy
        it was a fine showing
                   under your concrete
        I’m that seed with
                  blossoms no one but me could water properly
         I thought we were one but two
     is always the better
                                  ending    

          Now listen here

: LM

the missing adrenaline

Tina Turner is dead
              pass the satellite phone Senator

I’ve got a message: I’ve never been more covetous of anything other than Jo Cameron’s genetics
     & speaking of surviving another armageddon
lest we forget the sixty thousand pounds of explosives that’re bound to show @ the next false flag event I’m
         heartbroken face like a wet weekend all I’m left singing is what’s love got to do with it?

                    –LM

what was left of Lucy

sometimes the tiniest sound makes me jump out of my skin they say I’m not focused hard enough muting my emotions
    though I’m not good at it like a bad business slogan the more you play with it the harder it gets
          call me a regular Mrs. Lovett I’ll take a dive for Benjamin Barker there’s no way he’d throw me in the oven is it loneliness or desperation they already call me a mad woman for being a pincushion
         she said I think I’m not too shabby a 10 just sick in the head and she never
                                          fucking  sleeps

–LM

melatonin overdoses surge

Cheers to you for a job well done!
   No one can compare to your creativity
   & passion
   it’s no surprise you’ve been so successful

           you overcame so many obstacles
    to achieve this win
          & your perseverance is an inspiration
   to everyone
         you
           me__

Here’s where I draw lines of success in pen somebody give me a dollar amount
      I’ve got less than a month to figure this out something stripped me for parts then sold me to a junkyard don’t ask me how I am how I was or where I’m going I won’t know the know-how
              I lost my way a few miles back but we’ve met along this path I’m low on iridium I think it’s poisonous I’m halving the dosage

_{I hope you’re as happy as we are! I can’t wait to celebrate you winning this award____}

–LM

say it with your full chest

& maybe poetry isn’t a thing you devote your life to

   I always knew love was fleeting
      I just never expected the real thing
to jump out of my closet

       suddenly my heart burst wide open
   I’m still battering hatches
   reaching for my staple gun

I am sickened of the dictation
                 I’m a terrible criminal just like the woman in the Bible nO oNe eLsE contributed I realize now I was always on this island alone

           I choose to believe
             in humanity
             because I am
       brave I chose
             to be courageous

                that’s more than I can say any day
         for you

–LM

suspicious sign in prevented.

Here lies the long throw
         between fear and indifference
the last thing I’d be afraid of is you in fact

      to be my own eulogist
   guzzling unsound narratives

from all sides

        I don’t have the energy for martyrdom
I can only say I understand past tense
           [I’ll never be heard from again]

             I am not some dark type Pokémon
    I’ve learned enough before we met
        here’s to attempting to do anything right
                    the first time

           –LM       

screenshot the stereo

you don’t experience yourself
    so you do rely on outward opinion
        whether you disappear like Clint Eastwood or blame the CIA for your own character assassination
              we’ve got mail!
        & dreams
           pretty slimy fucked up dreams
                          icky icky “comfort” food

the wee smirk has become the big cheese
              how dare I prefer it p(l]easant
        give a KitKat break to the liar
          there’s so much wrong with the world
     I’d rather not add to it
                 
                       –LM

the cold side

Thank you for choosing The Lexicon this is Lauren how may I help you

       do you want to know a truth
     you were more than I envisioned
   I know we’ve been here before it’s just
  I guess I am playing life from a distance

                       I stole the world from Atlas’ shoulders fucked around & found out just how heavy
              the world was

                its the cycle that defeats
           I’ve destroyed all my pedestals
          I just want to roll over &
      find the cold side &
   go back to sleep


   –LM