Truth is
I meant every word
because I’m cursed
because the present
is an ongoing nightmare
and I know
it’s only going to get worse
from here so I’ll jump these
randomly placed hurdles
just for you
because
without you
there is nothing
there is no identity
there is
No
me
[whatever that means]
I wish I could hand you a brochure
because this world tour is looking
|prettyshort|
& I know I have the ticket to leave the ride
at any time
but I’m
not ready
to stare death in the eye –
yet
& it’s not like you didn’t tell me goodbye
& I should’ve wondered more
at the time
about the timing
but life’s a prick in the same way
I’m a horrendous mess and
menace so
check to see|the hollows
in my eyes may just be
[pupils] instead
–LM
The Lexicon 