stay in your lane when the devil takes the wheel

I cannot sleep when I want to
   I’m under the impression
      it’s because it’s without you
   So 》
           I use alcohol as a substitute
      It’s all I choose to control
                    right now I’m a fucking mess

it’s not cute

                        My poor Pisces moon
          & it’s hazy influence from Neptune
       I think maybe its a family trait

when Dad’s asleep in the driveway

                  at least that’s what I tell myself

–LM

the uranus node conjunction

We woeful, brave and romantic collective
      I am painting a terrible portrait
           of our labor

      with all its desperate last breath valor
            threading through a color
               that doesn’t exist

spearheading a revolution
      in my own sorry spendthrift time
        penning awful blues

              longing for the inevitable
                           envisioning
                     ultimately:
               our apogee

–LM

storm on the tongue

Leaning into super consciousness
      head first and paying for it
           with electric scars

      This journey will leave me stripped
                                                         to
                                                        the
                                                       bone
                I can’t help that I would love to
                            shock you @ 2 AM
         by rattling on your door

                        [being misunderstood
            is a tragic pattern/I’d love you to end it
                 I am the tendril always reaching out]

  –LM

uranus opposition pluto

As mad and eccentric and unconventional as it is I’ve fell unto an epiphany in these small hours. I am not scared anymore.

           I realized what I lost long ago
               & the prize I missed most
         was self responsibility
                I mean to say,
                    respect never needed to enter
           for whom it didn’t belong

                   I’ve wasted so much time
            on unfulfillment
                        yet I treated it
                    like it was something due to evolve
              back in stock @ Walmart

                    shamefully just accepted the loss/
        but I’ve been told
                       I am persistent
            when you pretend you can’t understand
        my language________

                      allow me to translate power, too

                               

LM

Lilith in Sagittarius

I never had syrupy words
      for you to discover
              buried in the dark on crepe paper
       when I am hardly alive/

  Ignore the butchered woman
         outside. Black Dahlia was a
                  ritual sacrifice____

Do me proper,
     tease me in public. What is your
  concept of ownership?

         Drink a little more poison.
                  We’ll high-rise together.
   You hate to love me
                as hard as you do when
      I’m toxic.
           

      Even Nostradamus never
       saw me coming.

–LM

lilith in the 3rd house

In & out of consciousness awaiting the big sleep, so I can truly rest in peace | FOR ONCE. The alarm switches on deaf ears since someday soon this will all be gone. I’ve known but I am so far from prepared, sipping mini tragedies in the aftermath of solidarity sucking on a femoral artery & smirking to myself because I am endless in my search for ‘my people’.

Here’s another crime of passion over something I said again like in my spare time I’m hunting hinting asking for it as if I’m working against myself against my better judgment but nobody told me my judgment was ordinary. Can you hear me? I’m talking too loud on purpose does the sound of being right itch your fucking eardrums? It polished my wardrums.

I’ve spent so long trying to maintain my innocence it’s making me guilty & I believe if I could set you free/ I would untether myself next and we’d look at our options while we have the chance

& seize the opportunity sooner than a heartbeat.

–LM

     
          

fourth house.

Signing away your free will
      is like signing an NDA
       there is no one
    to whom you sold it
    nor a soul who can afford it
          there is only you
          who no longer controls it

    we spend lives yearning
         for context
            & we own it
              we were never meant to find it

  But.

Sometimes we reunite. Some times that is the plan. The goal.

            And you come home.

–LM

Capricorn 13° A fire worshipper ~ MAGIC — Sabian Symbologist ~ Saijin

“Ever a work in progress.” Capricorn 13° A fire worshiper ~ MAGIC Can’t stop me now! When you hear your own fire burning the decree, “Lead, follow or get out of the way!” Know that your divinity has spoken. You are welcome to go ‘round the block as many times as you please. But doing […]

Capricorn 13° A fire worshiper ~ MAGIC — Sabian Symbologist ~ Saijin

My Venus & Neptune placement to the degree.

Unlighted

Raw, potent immersion in
a single scorpion’s dangerous scuttle
the mouth watering taste of
wine colored berries dripping
shades of blood

How organic, the intensity:
Almost too much!
Look the scorpion in the eyes but
God forbid, dodge the tail
Possessive it becomes when enamoured
A scrupulous dance!

Lustrous and lustful
Wafts of smoky intimidation
snickers & passion
I can sense their aura
out of a crowd of people

Meet their gaze & lose sense
Of mind
& soul

–LM. (Authors Note: Exhaustive)

Astraea

My own mother, my best friend,
my boss, all Virgoan.

The maiden, the celestial virgin,
representatives of the valorous woman who refused to leave
even when the gods themselves
Fled Olympus.

Instead she chose to live among Us
until humanity had too many irons
In the fire & struck a chord
commencing
a hasty retreat to an overhanging,
endless curtain of night

She learned but dismissed
the peoples’ violence
Turned her nose up in disgust
& now she’s stitching
Sharp/glinting/stars

–LM